fractures in the facade of your porcelain beauty.

2006-01-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

my scars remind me that the past is real :D
the end, MOVED.

2005-09-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

my scars remind me that the past is real :D
the end, MOVED.

2005-08-29T19:43:00.000+08:00

OH.

the circus,
monkey leashing the dog.
entertainment.
claps with spasm :D

suming up bliss into a 13 page publisher document.

2005-08-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

consider these scars,
a new souvenir.

solitude confinement.
irritation. loud music.
taped mouth, running thoughts.

refresh,soon.

cause i want it that way.
i want you to tell me.
touched, once again.

at least i have your name under my sleeves :D

2005-08-27T23:39:00.000+08:00

black lace on sweat

dedication to miss so-and-so.ahaha

fragile fingers
skinny bones.
empty promises
anger.
purple.
pink.
white.
star.
tears.
salt and vinegar.
stop it.
sit.
talks.
beautiful interior.

PS, i love you

one look could kill
my pain your thrill

neverbereplaced.
onethreenineonetwo.

today,
someone new. gathered
reminiscing. nostalgia
hopeful. a glimpse.
disappointment.
thoughts. wasted.
the old feeling.
not going to...

2005-08-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

a spindle, a darkness, a fever, and a necklace

not another day with the uniforms and books.

just an irritant bugging me with her dumb sensitivity.
i'll throw you a cup of sympathy
and watch it drip from your cheeks

.stop assuming
you jolly well should know who you are.

the kun, the tex and the L :D

consistentdreams.
iMISS.
for you id bleed myself dry.

spook show? ahahaha,

i'll sell your memories for fifty pounds per year

2005-08-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

a mascara hero with a heart of zinc

the kunming girl visited the fortune teller,
fortune teller says it's best to avoid monkeys this year.
got a divine and asked for a name.
aha, cai hong cai hong cai hong.
..next, the fengshui master (:

:D haha 30 mins to 10.30.
EXCITED OR NOT!

traded in their hearts and hands for disposable cameras.

2005-08-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

I have swallowed nails so
I can never say your name
Now words are heard through my eyes.

now template. HAHA,
retro retro retro.

or should i get the old one back i dont know.
tell me :D

the pink shirt. the white slippers.

destiny has seperated us,
till then will we meet again.
girl and boy: [jumps.]
yay, the end.

rose ah soon and esther.
eeyer. so scary.

2005-08-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

primary4best friend (:

joanna, rebecca, shiyu,huiqi and kim.
bused,196. texas and LA.
branksome, fun in the rain,
fake watches and rings,
a pretty pretty house.
awe and food,
tv and meetings.
videos and pictures.
bitching and laughter.
silly little primary school reminiscence.

still, nostalgia.

im a faulty string of blue christmas lights,
blinking off and on.
...and off again.

:D tell me, tell me, tell me.

afinehappyday, when it should be.

2005-08-17T23:22:00.000+08:00

wo bei mo le.

but there's two possibilities to it.
so just shut up and do nothing.
one day lah huh, one day.

i changed it, go see.
ok fine, maybe not yet.
idontliketheyellowone.

shes pretty in my eyes ok!
talks and scares.

read,
hardlove.

2005-08-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

unsatisfied satisfication.

i wanna buy that thing that can vibrate at your tummy,
so amusing.
and in order to become sexy club members,
it is advisable for each and everyone of you to purchase it before we even attempt to wear those tight-fats-squeezing shirt and sari. YAY

baked beans, the social studies
1345, garlic bread
bridge and back.
towned. herhouse
life savers,cute tampons
crazy cutter, tv shows
and the dumb dog HAHA.
jump and hit the door :D

iLIKE.

like father, like son.

'' qian mian de nu peng you ''
the defaced soul eeyer.

somebody so pretty.
ahaha,
faked-up.

anoriginalsinortwo.

2005-08-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

let me tell you a story.

one day, a girl went to the animal farm,
she saw a cross breed of a monkey and a duck.
it was so hideous that she died.
the end.

moral of the story, go figure. aha.

vasatham central, pls watch, everyday 10.30.
i think there'll be something nice lah.

bitching and ikan bilis :D
so smile!

2005-08-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

national day show is so boring.
i can rather spend the time peeling out the scales from a goldfish.

the 69messages.

chaos day? silly you.
AHAHA.

undesirable dalliance.

too much arh too much.
too little arh too little.

i think you should just dig a straw right into your eyeball.
and squeeze all the blood into a bottle, mix them with egg white and serve them to you and the rest in the animal farm (:

iMISS?

2005-08-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

desperate desires and unadmirable plans

grab the monkey, the bulldog,
the unearthly human and damn them to sodom.
their land of utopia.

the lie.
the denial.
the contradiction.
suchanirritant.

new pictures (:
ask me the password and i might tell you.

5significants.

nomoreveryimportantobject.

2005-08-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

you.
cause everytime we touch
i get this feeling.

~~yucks, techno~~

you,
less of her and more of you.
imiss :D

lifesizemirror.

apuneh (:

2005-08-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

the conspiracy of burning down houses.
ashes to soup, kill two birds with one stone (:

kittu. bala. singharam (:
the united indian tigers!
YAY man.

the day of the black out.
the little dark bodies will jump in joy!

an original sin or two.

prettypeoplegalore.

2005-08-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

the black comedy.

the rhetoric and treason of saying that ill miss you.
"hey, well maybe you should stay."

the robbery
the bravery,
ian, so cool lah huh.
HAHA. yes you rock

when you clicked refresh.
its suppose to turn out fine.
mymother! what happend to you.
LOL, you tickle my tastebuds.

today was a weaar happy day.

the new girl, still untouched.
only hope, reminiscence
coked with the hopes of happy happy ever after

2005-08-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

life size mirror,
nostalgia

dusty pictures,
chronicles of life and death.
fresh new ones,
the day after.

a very budget stomach pump ((:
thank you very much.

2005-08-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

donald duck's webbed feet.
so ugly and clumsy.

comprehensible.

bitching session fun or not? :D
ahaha.

conman,
silliest thing. HAHA.

2005-07-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

the monkey and the bulldog,
illustrated stories for kids (:

eeyer, enjoy.

''oh her mouth very ugly one?''
says the bimbo.

yes dearie. :D

2005-07-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

dumb insolence and phony soliloquy.

empty vessels make most noise.
then what does full vessels make?

three year olds and mister dust mite.
pg 26, time is precious.

2005-07-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

the owner and the old english sheep dog.
led by the collar, dirty legs.
sounds familiar.

2005-07-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

taiwan,
one sheep jumped down the cliff,
the rest followed. total : 1500.
sounds familiar.

2005-07-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

seriously, why bother when you dont bother

everyone has a different point of view.
and just have to trust what you believe.
why decipher the way i talk.
why listen to others.

propaganda or what.

10thjune, who did that.
clear enough?

oh the drama.
HAHA.

2005-07-18T19:23:00.000+08:00

why bother if you dont bother.

ok fine lah huh, fuckface (me) is attention seeking lah ok?
fuckface is action depressed only lah.
fuckface is damn loser lah.
fuckface gets hurt so easily
fuckface cnt take a blow
fuckface
fuckface this, fuckface that
aiyah. fine lah what ever you wanna say,
i am lah i am lah.
happy?

iUSEDto.

forget it.
im over it alrdy.
i dont stay on.
only bacteria breed.

own what rightfully belongs to you.
at least fuckface have dignity.

a heart for the ones who remained true when the world grew dim

2005-07-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

mortal hopes and mocking eyes
love and cruelty may mix and meet
remorseful torturer,
will take all the seven deadly sins,
and from them make in darkest joy.

satisfy,
gratify the need,
desire,
or expectation.

now learn your lesson.
give up and live.

grateful (:

2005-07-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

two different lives, yet so similiar.

anyway, heres the deal.
i dont care what helen lie said to you.
i dont care what she did to you.
its her own fucking business to act as if shes like the queen of psychology.
some dumb shit aint it.
HA, how hilarious.
oh HAHA depression my ass.
whatever you wanna say man.
i dont give two fucks abt you anymore.
attention seeker?
please lah. whose attention do i wanna seek?
yours? i rather seek the attention of some bus driver.
some people are just too blinded by their flaws.
perhaps, they think its too flawless,
perhaps they think they're always so so perfect.
perfect my ass lah.
oh and dont worry, im not as stupid as you.
i dont do stupid things like tell helen lie stuff.
helen lie can do whatever shes capable of
but, i still dont give a damn.
oh its all because of me?
HAHA thats just what a dumb person would do.
blame others when they are wrong.
and i admit that im dumb too.
but some people just live in the state of self denial.

oh so you think youre such a sweetie,
young innocent and always SO PERFECT aye?
never doing anything wrong?
get a brain and think before you speak lah.

whos the one thats trying to seek attention huh.
always so possessive?
that didnt come out from my mouth.
someone told me.

oh btw im sure im not particularly affected by the rest,
dont make them sound like they're such big sinners.
actually, its like some particular person who thinks she rules the whole world.
ohYES soul searching.
is that the best i can come out with?
i pressume thats the only possible hope for you.
what other stuff can you do other than dissing people.
oh please. you're just like anyone,
a hypocrite.
stop acting like youre the nkf person lah.
so kind and helpful
but guess what, you'll still get what you always deserved.
just like the dumb shit.

oh and i dont have friends?
HAHA lets make a comparison.
how many of those do you have before you had them this year?
i can chop off nine of my fingers and give you the answer.
unless you think, i have like, how many?
thirteen thousand fingers?

perhaps im wrong,
but thats what it seems to be.

haha your conscious just struck?
do you have it in the first place.

haha friends, loved ones of who you think im mentioning,
before you start having any intentions of defending her,
by dissing me or having harsh comments,
i think its better if you stay out of this,
but ill just accept any comments if any dumb fucks dont understand what ive just mentioned above (:

provided, this is my blog.
i wanna state my stand.
im sick of being mistreated by some mentally unstable bitch.
you wanna know the cause.
perhaps we should just start from square one.
you think you're the boss of me.
so many people said you were mean to me.
and when i stood up for myself,
you said im mean in a whiny voice.
perhaps you hurt me too deep lah huh.
too deep till you dont even get it.
provided, you find joy in my pain.
haha big fuck lah.
your words, your actions.
HA you just dont think before you react.
yes i rmbr you slapped me.
perhaps you dont rmbr.do you.

ok lah. action then action.
but look who's talking man.
perhaps you have some devoters
but they aint good shit.
perhaps some just like to snatch away some sweet babe's gf.
oh-the-drama.

11:11, almost two hours.
if you think im talking abt you,
maybe you have to think twice.
you never know.

i received a message from you.
actually a few.
SO HAPPY SO HAPPY.
but i had a broken promise.
that sucked lah.
sometime next week?
iHOPE.

its been less than an hour and i missed you alrdy.
actually ive missed you since 11thjune.

reciprocated (((((:
rather waste some time with you.

my body still remember things you told me to forget.

a chance, ive wrecked.
a hope, ill persevere.

speak your mind.

2005-07-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

if im rich ill buy alot of haivannas slippers.
black and white,
green, brown, white,
black, blue, purple,
somemore green.
ALOT ALOT LAH.

right now im thinking of a bar of pink soap.

bittersweet migraine.

2005-07-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

we should never have lived like we were skyscrapers

a dream of temporary bliss.
you, so pretty so pretty.
its all about you.
iHEART.

YAY man im gg to sch tmr
do i even sound excited.
you dumb whore.

oh YAY tomorrow we have PE.
oh YAY we have chinese too.
oh please lah. just shut up.

talks abt sleeping pills,
talks abt lunacy,
death by temptation.
but at least i feel negatively positive.

i have so much uncompleted shit.
so useless, just like chip.
HAHA im so dumb.
making comparisons to some dead beetle
loser.

i missed my oral
i missed lessons on matrices.
i missed lit
i missed geog
i missed floorball.
haha i dont think i actually cared.
i cared for the sake of trying to care.

fucking meaningless life lah.

i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you.

ireallyhateyouforyouremptypromises.

trust, just alphabetically combined to form a word that dont exist.
dumb shit who ever thought of such a ridiculous word.

im bitching so much abt a random person
i feel that its rather fun actually.

talking to some babes made me realise i hardly have any joy alrdy
its been wasted on you, but it was sweeter than anything.
all my life, i pray for someone like you.
never be replaced.

so mutual man.

i had this chat with babe,
if what we've discussed came true.
ill laugh till my eyes can shoot out milk.
but you nvr know, life, so unpredictable.

i want my studded belt (: haha
i want my twohundreddollars.

i feel like buying some kind of animal
and ive always wanted a killer whale.

ill love my whale as much as i would love my tastebuds
i promise (:

let's leave the world of books without pictures

2005-07-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

the negative space.

chip died,
next, a housefly.
perhaps ill just name it,
myHOUSEFLY.

im so unstable lately.
haha laugh cry laugh cry.
loser man.

yay man KTV KTV KTV.
haha guess who jio me LOL
YAY man. lovelovelove.

but am i doing this to feel contented cause you did it too.
i expect too much but i get too little.
just like buying a packet of nasi lemak on one sunny day
and when you open it excitedly,
you can actually count how many ikan bikis there are.
you get the drift?
that kind of dumb shit.

life is so unpredictable.
eeyer, and why am i even talking abt it.

their guitar lessons.
one missing.
ohYES. babe got sony ericsson
so pretty so pretty.
im jealous.

the broken promise.

the village is a dumb show.
i crave the fish soup at downtown foodcourt.
i miss.
the soup, or the people.

the black void.

2005-07-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

stab me with your eyes.

the misery of my broken promise.
i despise myself for that.
i know you waited so long.
but i just have to disappoint you.
im sorry.

different people, different aspects of life.
for me, nothing seem to matter much at this point of time.
you force yourself to memorise shit
but when youre old (when your wrinkles and teeth start falling)
you`ll prolly be senile
and wont rmbr a single fuck abt what youve studied for your past life.

perhaps you'll wash your face with dishwashing liquid.
perhaps you`ll catch a cat and name it something you wont even rmbr the next day.
perhaps you wont even rmbr whr you left your dentures.
life, something so exquisite,
something so fragile,
something so beautiful when you were there.

how tragic.
you're just a ragdoll.
toyed and broken.

im skipping my dumb oral tmr.
ok fine. call me stupid call me dumb
ive made plans to retain.
besides, whats the point to study.
my life is cursed.
from now till forever.

it was sth so mutual.
sth so real.
i sound rather corny
i dont even know what im talking abt.

for fifteen years of my screwed up life.
this, was the prettiest.
i sound like some dumb loser.
so shut up.
i dont even know what i want.
i dont even know what im thinking abt.
procrastinating daydreaming.
thinking you have forever to live,
but you nvr know when you'll die.

i took a test and they said i will die in my slp.
the best part, noone willl ever know.

i anticipate.

fifteen years of my dumb life.
i cnt figure out whats the purpose of living.
when you were 5 years old,
everything was abt colouring books and nice smelling crayons,
when youre 8,
everything was abt the games youre gonna play during recess.
when you 12,
you'll start thinking PSLE is so cool.
(ok i dont think PSLE is cool lah)
when youre 13onwards,
perhaps you'll start having dumb crushes on girls or guys,
perhaps you`ll have a couple of lost love.
perhaps you'll start smoking.
perhaps you'll start drinking.
perhaps you'll love someone so much you can just bleed yourself dry.
perhaps you'll sacrifice everything for them
perhaps you'll just make the best out of everyday just to be with them.

but when will you ever know.
perhaps the ones so dear to you will just turn their back on you and stab you like a live dog? in and out and in and out.

you spend the whole of your life searching for something youve always wanted.
you finally found it. but you nvr know,
one day when you're happily eating your char siew bao,
you LOST it. then you think.
that was what youve always wanted.
then you stare at your pau.
whats the point now.

you actually lived for the special thing.
when its gone. WHATS THE POINT?!

life, so unpredictable.
so versatile.

it was a fine evening.
talking to you.
it feels the same though i know it isnt.

pearls told me sth that slapped me back to the middle of reality and isolation.
but im still stuck somewhr far.
im grateful for everyone.
but YOU will never be replaced.

trying to get over someone is not what you want.
but what you have to. cause nothing is for ever.

your guitar lessons (:
my visits.

the phone rang.
its you and im glad.
my lover, my counsellor.

imperfection searching for sth imperfectly perfect
my own fantasy asylum.

2005-07-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

satisfy me with a phonecall.

bitching session.
(people who dont wanna read my crap.stop here. thank you very much and please leave (: )

just another fuckface who pissed the shit out of me.
i dont even know you and you`re asking abt me.
does it even matter to you if im with her
or does it matter if im not?
please lah. you seriously have no life.
go get one please.
if you dont like her. why do you even bother knowing?
why do you go poking your nose into ppls' life?
pretty pathetic aint it.
and even if you wanna know.
why dont you just ask me.
as if i will swallow you up.
loserfart.

catching up tday.
time changes things
and i reckon that.
it wasnt how it used to be.
many things differ.
its just not right anymore.

perhaps im just putting up this show for everyone.
deep inside. things are just falling deeper and deeper.
people say time heals all wounds.
how come mine got maggots?

sometimes.
its pretty queer.
why live? it doesnt do you any good.
the stress, the things that bring you down.
the people that made you love.
and the exactly same ppl that made you hate.
you hate yourself for loving them
you can give up the whole world for them
and sometimes, when they are hurt.
you`ll just wish you`re the one suffering.
cause thats was what you really define as love.

theres no such thing as eternity.
no such thing as forever.
no such thing as no end to any beginning.
at least, all in the name of love.

the amount of tears can fill up the whole of the polarbear tank.
the amount of blood can drown rachel.
the amount of sacrifice can make your parents hate you.
and the amount of love can just literally tear your heart apart.

i think you`re too foolish.
why did you even do that.
why did you even learn how to love.
you know what you`re the dumbest person ive ever met.

i think its creeping back slowing into my vein.
i hate every moment of the excruciating pain.
but you`ll prolly enjoy every moment of it.

my sin; my soul

i caught a beetle and named it chip.
it flies and isnt very adorable.
but somehow we can just relate.
its alone and trying hard to get out.
its strong on the outside but weak the other way round.

why does the world deceive?
think you know me?
guess what babe, y
you dont know a single fuck abt me.

build an alter so deep in the sad soul for me.
Depleted by negativity
Drained of all emotion
Impalpable to society

for you id bleed myself dry.

2005-07-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

beautiful tragedy.

your blog,
feels that you'd just read through me.
a night of pretty engravements.
numbed by your lies.

in the chapters of your life,
no one is like the other
no matter how similar they might be.
how much they remind me of you
they are not the same actually.

chapter fifteen,
temporary bliss.
permanent misery.
love and hatred.
oh the contrary.

ihateyouformakingmeloveyou.
onetwofour.

break from the domestic cage
to the wonders of the urban land.
town (:

metamorphosis of transgressic.

2005-07-11T11:38:00.000+08:00

itch to bitch.
stupid letter from my oh-so-concerned counsellor.
people are just full of hypocritical bullshit.
when will they ever stop?

delirium.

death by temptation.

lets play on a baggage carousel

an overdose of wonderland.
so not happily ever after.

tragedy; comedy
two sides, one coin.

from the beginning of the chapter.
till the last and very end.
its always you.

maybe enough is enough.

unveil revamped.
her own fantasy asylum.

2005-07-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

itch to bitch.

stupid letter from my oh-so-concerned counsellor.
people are just full of hypocritical bullshit.
when will they ever stop?

delirium.

death by temptation.

2005-07-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

an overdose of wonderland.
so not happily ever after.

tragedy; comedy
two sides, one coin.

from the beginning of the chapter.
till the last and very end.
its always you.

maybe enough is enough.

unveil revamped.
her own fantasy asylum.

2005-07-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

pretty girls make graves.

it was like sawdust, the unhappiness.
it infiltrated everything.
everything was a problem.
everything made her cry.
school homework boyfriends girlfriends
the future the lack of future the uncertainty of future
fear of future fear in general

day wasnt as impressive as i thought it would be.
a trip to our usual and i was stabbed sodeeply.again
i hate it cause i love it.
everything was just the little something that made the whole big thing.
i MISS.

their guitar lessons again.
one short and gone.
prawn crackers and wheels (:

wake me up at 11am (:
TV and black paint.

someonelingersinmymind.

wheres my fish?

2005-07-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

rather waste some time with you.

day 2(or is it 3) of wishing for a fish.
so sad. still no fish.
nvm lets just continue (:

i miss my blouse and pinafore ):

tv shows and cartoons.
burgerking and KFC.
twospecialones.
their guitar lessons.
my joy (:
ive got a million words and phrases on the tip of my tongue
for the non stranger next to me soon she'll know

such a pretty day after many devastating days.
love.

the beltsville crucible.

2005-07-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

stay and watch me fall.

after all your bullshit.
im hard to satisfy now.
i just want a night of mrs fields brownies please (:
and some coffee.
YAY and im gonna drag someone t play neopets with me.

i wanna keep a fish.

my fish will not
shit
eat
grow
swim

i might as well get a dead one (x

iheartyoulah.
thatwhoeverpersonthatmsgedme ((:

pictureimperfection.

pirouettesmylove <3

THIRTYFIVEdollars

2005-07-04T02:03:00.000+08:00

brainwashed alrdy lah.
no hope HAHA.

You're a drug hit to my sanity an acid trip to my well being.

THIRTYFIVEDOLLARS.ha!

2005-07-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes.
people who dont understand should just screw themselves lah.
esp ian.

HA if you ever see this.
you should know why i send you shit smses.

dont come and tell me some shit logic abt going to sch.
or some shit abt forgiving and whatever fuck it takes to make a person happy.
my old granny also can do that.
she can even give me ice milo.
CAN YOU.

but YOU can make me happy lah (:
so happy so happy.
YAY hearts you many lah

anw you dont know i actually kept every single thing frm you.
perhaps you wont understand.
when more came tday.
it all just feels so lacerated.

ireallyHATEyourbrokenpromises.

im alrdy wasting away.
but ill just see you when i see you.
it wont be the same anymore.
love. im is syo u.

KTV anyone.
book me.
monday to saturday.
anytime lah.
HAHA

how come im not strong huh.

THIRTYFIVEDOLLARS.

2005-07-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

anthems of hopeless heartache

razorblade kisses.
this is not a small cut that scabs,
and dries, and flakes, and heals.

I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
i hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close, not even a little bit,
not even at ALL

i want the pain of payment.
what's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
would you be my little cut?
would you be my thousand fucks?

~~dusk, a soul met a few others.~~

sometimes i just hate myself for loving everyone so much. so much.
it was just a dumb double attack LAH u dumb whore.
onlyidiotscryinadamntrain.

THIRTY FIVE DOLLARS haha

2005-07-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

lets sum the world into one clever line

somebody owe me THIRTYFIVE dollars LOR
20 for your cab fare
5 you borrowed frm me to return her.
5 you borrowed for the sticksofsatisfaction
and another 5.
you wanted to return YOUR lover.

i want them back soon.
thank you very much.

2005-07-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

i think i like gays YAY
and i think i want you back HAHA.

my chick (:
you want or not?

2005-07-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

will i be out of line
if i say i miss you.

I MISS YOU LAH!
how queer.

4days no school.
bliss huh.

ive figured.
im still not as strong as i thought i will be.
i got sth frm you tday.
and im not telling you what happened to me.

weeks ago.
we made this stupid promise.
and now its just an empty promise.
sth we all wanted t do tday.

why does the world deceive.

babe,
you just have to figure out the answer yourself.

i wanna go KTV (:

oh i think its me.

2005-06-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

barroom eyes shine vacancy.

1800 221 4444.
i REFUSE to talk.

the lack of interaction.
deprive of love and them.

was brought t see rebecca tday.
idontwannaseeyourface
psychiatrist and hospital shit.
im not packing and im nt going lah.

so keep your joyful heart to yourself ok.

confined to my room now.
they are gg stc tmr.
so happy so happy.

im staying at home to eat pineapple cakes frm taiwan (:

who says sticks and stones may break my bones.
and who says words cannot hurt me?

hypocritical bullshit.

2 therapist?
enough?
maybe...

2005-06-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

i dont care lah.
this is suppose to be tues entry.
but i like to type it under here.
HA! what can you do.

in the morning took train all the way to boonlay.
ha you can call this escapism or whatever shit it is.
i call it depression.

you brought me up and watched me fall.

2entire weeks+ of pure ignorance.

on the phone with babe.
no more funny shit.
ive come to a conclusion that maybe, perhaps we both have depression.
my hand looks pretty though.
call me attention seeker or whatever.
but nothing is helping at all.

i just realised what a horrible childhood she had.

ive fashioned this isolation thing in my head.
whats the point of studying?
whats the point of gg to school?
whats the point of eating?
whats the point of bathing?
what the point of bathing your dog?
though i dont have one.
who gives a damn.
ah. please lah.
nobody even likes you.
you can just jump into the sea in palawan
and nobody can even find you lah.

i see the burning hatred in your eyes.

though i refuse to cry.
you know how hard it is.
my heart, my soul.
i think they plasmolysed alrdy.
thats some science term.
i dont know correct or not.

so hows life?
bet its so pretty that you can just swallow dog poo and says its nice right?

well. good for you then.
im sinking like stupid titanic.
i realised im just shitting arnd.
oh well.
my mommy is gg to look for a doctor for me.
im gonna stay in some hospital and nvr come back.
yay. and you know what.
bye katongconvent.

all the misery.
all the pain.
excruciating
intolerable.

you stole my heart away.

oyah i rmbr ernest told us.
you can actually sell your soul online.
whee. ill sell mine and im gone.

hurry go jump for joy lah.

babe, you take care <3

i cnt slp.
my panadol dont work.
wth lah.

i hate physical touch.
dont touch me.

and save all the sympathy to yourself lah.
look at the brightside of life.
aiya this is not a big thing lah.
dont cut yourself lah. whats the point.

you dont even get me.

ay so what if we're higher chinese students.
and were taking our o's this year.
must pressurise us/me like some penguin arh.
so many shit to do.

i just wanna get out REAL soon.

perhaps i didnt grow up according to plan.
perhaps im not smart enough.
perhaps i should just learn african language and migrate there.

who will care?
no one.
HAHAHAHAHA

big fake smiles.

so, ill just see you when i see you.
hypocritical bullshits.

2005-06-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

the dead girl.

fragmented soul.
indulge in sorrows.

a dosage of unprescribed pills.
a phone call of the same deed.
a hope for no hope.

a suppress in my brain.
bitter migraine

guys bitching abt guys.
the humour.
HAHA.
lunch arcade.
torture of flashbacks.
rock fever, bishi bashi,
drum game, crazy taxi
movie.
initial d lah.
pretty boys (: HAHA
anthony jay edison. YAY

high admist the verdent land.
a switch over.

a plea.
a consideration
a hope

ian, thanks.

2005-06-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

Publicly smile and privately frown.
A weeping reprise.

a comedian, a couple of jokes.
a tainted heart.a broken soul
deep reluctance. heavily grieved

suggestion, a new hope
school up on the hill,
kampong bahru's little light.

escapism,
utopia of hope.

lets just pray lah.

love lust and fake integrity

2005-06-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

a calamitous defeat.

sorrow and emptiness.
reluctance and misery.
anticipation.
a path of unanswered questions.
query. doubts and mental reservation.

joy.
i beg

2005-06-23T02:10:00.000+08:00

crowded elevator.

16beloved strangers.

Alone, in front of the expanse of black,
Light from the side but faith no more,
A moment to ponder before I crack,
And I reach for the pain without a sore.

It eludes me, that devious and sly thought,
Leaving the notion of immense disease,
A smile - receiving the item that I sought,
But it's a lie - I'm brought to my knees.

One, the sender, blinks and turns away,
Finding solace in personal deceptions,
Letting this helpless being cry and stray,
Upon the brink of futile conceptions.

Once - just maybe - there had been the rose,
Impish grins shining to respond in aluminum,
But the heart - it feels what the mind knows,
Sensing pain in edifices and a small crumb.

Falling, now, with no signs of stopping known,
Occasional hints with the facade of light to see,
Snapping and breaking every single bone,
Yet one would see an untouched body.

talks of hatred.
they trickles.
caustic cynicism.
she dreads the day.

a stab in the face.
a tore an indelible scar.

thank you very much.

2005-06-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

I watched the walls around me crumble

lifes like a pile of lausai with maggots swimming arnd in it.
everything is like wet pieces of newspaper lumped up with hair.

im back

and its nvr better.

even msn is so screwd.
what is this.
sigh.

black balloon.
(: i thank god for you.

indelible scar

2005-06-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

yourstruly (:

I do not ask forgiveness,
A comfort I'll never deserve.
I merely want to let you know,
But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face,
To look you in the eye,
To face your wrath, your apathy -
Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away,
I festered and I fled;
Cutting and wounding and lashing out,
Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you,
I surely had no right
To snatch away such a precious gem;
A dark thief in the night.

those two forbidden words

all my bags are packed,
im ready to go.
4days3night.

2005-06-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

three cheers for sweet revenge.

the world, so small.
your sister, her enemy
spastic embarrassment.
her friend, ill care.
dumb insolence.

you prolly wont get it.

another day out.
food. shops. theatre.
mr and mrs smith.
i like.
wet ground. so funny.
nuff said (:

ignorance is bliss.

2005-06-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

adding insult to injury

somehow I find beauty in our failings,
somehow I find meaning in these lies
somehow I'm made perfect in this fracture,
your back is begging sweetly for my knives!

a delay, a meet up.
town, jing and her sis.
jing, so chao tar.
HAHA
shopped. lunched.
brownies, hopeful heart.

saw van

they cabbed me to ps.

met you and her.
just stuff.
everything happen for a reason.

sth amiss, you.
i miss.

isn't it sweet how,
trusted with angels,
and how so quickly
I break my promises?

tmr, you (:

2005-06-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

angel in disguise.

you. <3
bliss.

ill book. ill talk
you suggest.ill die for.
anything just for you (:

i dont care what others say abt you.
why should you care too.
your joy, my side effect.

pls be happy (:

anw talked to her abt some stuff.
a rude awakening.
but pretty glad.

away soon.
you and me <3
713

temporary amnesia.

2005-06-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

I read your lines
and know the soul
and take the pill
that takes the toll
And I try to be
everything you need
and I know that you
will succumb to greed
And I try to love
and I try to give
And I try to see
the point to live
But you know not
the pain inside
You cannot know
what I must hide
And hide I will
for it won't be shown
For we are real
and we are grown.
We have matured
and no longer feel.
We will not go back,
we will not heal.
We live our lives
because we must
And the closer we are
the less we trust
And though you know
that I'll be there,
for I have told you,
but do you care?
You lean on me,
but will not support
the fact my lies
are just retorts.
And all my pain
will go on still,
forever needing,
my selfish fill
But I need you now,
and you're not here.
And so becomes
my greatest fear.
That you will know
Another me,
and I will go on
and never be.

2005-06-11T01:56:00.000+08:00

your empty promises.

cw`s hse and had an agressive pillow fight.
bites and yelling. fucking funny.
small talks under the block.

pathetic groceries.

anw if you hate me just tell me.

it just feels that youre always there.
and i rrly appreciate it.
i just found a similar victim.
how i wish..
so sweet (:

sometimes dont you ever wonder.
do you live life for yourself or for others.

3babes.thanks.

hate myself for being myself
ironic but true.
what was i thinking.

i apologise for any fucked up stuff.
things change.
nevertheless, people.

stand up. get right.
i cnt take your shit too.
but thanks for everything.

for now. its you

love me.
loathe me.
decipher.
or fabricate.
take it.
or leave it.

2005-06-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

answering your dedication.
carrie chong the late night show. whee

how come my table got so many ants huh.

nvm lah. at least they got fast legs.
my legs are like rotting one by one.
just amputate them for me lah.
actually its just those feet.
but nvm lah. full package.

had an early breakfast.
met babe and walked arnd like some aimless sheep.
bought MANY MANY STUFF haha
thats nice (:
saw other babes ((:
so funny lah. HAHA
food. clothes. people. bathroom.

pretty little green boxer <3

2005-06-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

pretty day (:

you are such a bitch.

HAHA
daphne`s hse and noodles (:
chocolate and movies.
crazy outbreaks and sexy ppl.
poor princess and freaky scares (x

hug lah!

2005-06-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

holds nonchalance as a trusted shield,
shines only in the presence of the treasured few.
a head for business, a body for sin,
and a heart for the ones who remained true when the world grew dim.

2005-06-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

my paper heart.

morning passed by in a blur.
went over to daphne`s hse in the afternoon (:
just fun. haha watched some shows and stuff.
left in the evening.
brought home miss care bear.
delightful.
met venus and went to tampines.
little complains and little talks.
had some food.
van came.stuff like that.
she had a haircut haha.
went home after that (:

had a small talk with babe.
we were wondering if that one day...
HAHAHA that`ll be nice (:

youve been missed.

2005-06-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

every cloud has a silver lining.

she sees it coming.
yet she cnt hide.
was it worth the trouble
or was it worth the time.

she leaves her home.with her sack and shoes.
she drifts alone. the ship sets sail.
drifting on the sea of uncertained isles.
doubts she cnt clear
questions she cnt answer.
till then, she`ll find the shore.
the shore, a whole new beginning.

changes intimidates

i talked non stop to you tday.
like there wasnt any tomorrow.
how hilarious.
4days3nights. you (:

what a horrible june.

2005-06-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

towned with him and friends.
had some cause play shit
went t meet the rest later on.
downtown and stuff.

sometimes...

2005-06-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

torn through the flesh
and slashed into the heart.

you hvnt seen heaven and earth collide.
have you?

2005-06-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

i thought i'd roll off your back i thought you'd be tougher than that
i've been acting really shitty you've been so stressed and sometimes your just a pest
but counting your inadequacies seems a little silly pointless comes to mind

i had enough of you man.
bloody irritant.

haha so funny
ure sailing on the uncertained isles
but guess what.
i happen to miss you (:

i need someone whos free everyday.
any takers?
sigh. sth`s not right.

just untangle all the knots
and you`ll get a thread.
get real.

2005-06-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

Parody of an angel
Miles above the sea
I hear the voice of reason
Screaming up to me

To see you,
when I wake up is a gift
I didn't think could be real.

i had a dream i just cnt rmbr.
got up looked arnd. noone`s at home
got bored. ate stuff and made some calls
went out with mister him (: impromptu
town was unusually deserted.
got tgthr with mister him and girlfriend.
maha. got stuff for myself (:
YAY MAN! tmr`s another day.

wonder if my numbers came out.

Fly on these secondhand wings
willing to find out what impossible means

2005-06-01T21:30:00.000+08:00

virgin suicides.

groceries and a scrumptous meal
tv shows and crazy people.
stayed over.
night shopping and ghost stories (:

i dreamt of 4 D numbers.
if you ever believe me. go buy it
1101 HAHA

more babes came over in the morning.
stuff. got home and met venus and daphne at roxy.
got a haircut. HAHA i look like pangsai.
believe me?

HAHA went over the daphne`s hse after that.
watched virgin suicides.
pretty show (:

the night is young

2005-05-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

everybody's changing
and I don't feel right

had little talks till the break of dawn.
and without knowing.
things get triggered.

sitting on bed
trying out cards.
slipping into the world of your own fantasies.

comedy and tragedy, two sides, one coin.

morning (:
cw`s hse and brunch.
daphne`s hse and screen plays.
a box of hearts
a day of different emotions.
so many stuff,
so many so many

i blame you.

2005-05-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

lolita.
light of my life.
fire of my loins.
my sin.my soul

expected the unexpected.

im really really glad youre home (:
someday it`ll end.
unforgettable flashbacks.

painted nails. pretty tattoo.
your hands on her lap
and our paths crossed each others.
thanks for everything ((:

the carriage returns.

heartbreaks and patches,
life, something beautiful yet ugly.
didnt have much going on.
phonecalls. lunch.
walking in the rain. anticipation.
wasting our time away.
talks. enlightment.
sad faces. shattered hearts.
entertainment. bus stop

the usual, sweet goodbyes.

2005-05-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

sitting eagerly, waiting once more.

morning.
reached holy fam and cabbed back to sch for report bks.
decided that we should just skip everything and we had a fair share of our little ghost stories.
it was soon when the phone rang.
got drawn to katong laksa.
muttered chit chats and a bus.
puffs on the way and continuous screen-plays
arrival of the sweet ones.
solved lunch conveniently and screenplays once more
mere nap and sweet goodbyes.

love, the cherished ones.

2005-05-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

undesirable dalliance.
a body for sin;

them; 7-11
mr cockroach got everyone so freaked out.HAHA
bused to parkway.
bubbletea (: and kfc.
cabbed down to daphne`s hse.
watched monster-in-law. DEBS and eye10

lets skip that part shall we (:

2005-05-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

a visit with chicken rice and money.
then down to the coffee shops and savouring lor mee.
a bus ride a long wait.
aimlessly walking. excited mnms.
their guitar lessons. truth or dare.
a bookshop. plenty noises.
evening of sweet goodbyes.

turn off the lights.paint me a tapestry

2005-05-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

Dig your polished nails into the dirt
Rip your skirts off, wipe the hurt off
You know it tears my heart out when you
Flirt with danger and any stranger

12.53
pretty day as usual (:
got up and waited for cw`s arrival
called miko and went over to parkway

daphne venus and miko

everyone seemed to be absent frm sch HAHA
so bored so bored

cabbed down to daphne`s hse
watched DEBS.fucking nice lesbian show i tell you
JORDANA BREWSTER is hotshit!
went home and went to visit mr doctor (:

YAY

i crave chicken rice.

2005-05-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

out of breath or out of key, her voice resonated in me.

Dancing around, her drink in hand
All her baggage in tow
I just want to forget and let go
Of all the joy, all of the pain
I took your guilt and placed it into me
And now I kiss it goodbye
Our last dance ended fatally

everyone was over at ciwei`s hse last night
had a fair share of fun
and an emotional breakdown
i should just get stabbed and shut up
had fun with the girls.

shujing zoe miko venus
van ciwei sean darren and melissa

the babes went for night prata and left.
forgetting the payment HAHA
slpt through the night though.

daphne came over early next morning
and we bused down to zoe`s hse
the babes came. then zoe and jace went to work
the rest were finding their own fun
HAHAHA

over the daphne`s
watched meet the fockers.
princess look like a ragdoll i tell you
i think she likes me
hahahaha peace and princess like me
WAAHHH!

measure me in metered lines in one indecisive stare

left and van and cw was fucked up by this black fuck driver.
tsk

it was all in all a pretty day.
love (:

I am bottled fizzy water and you are shaking me up
You are a fingernail running down the chalkboard

2005-05-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

i need to pangsai man

fucking happy abt sth
so happy so happy

YES MAN!!

anw at cw`s hse now
i dont wanna go home later on.

yay drinking later.
bye babes.

love (:

2005-05-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

how come the blogger website is in chinese arh?
its either my com is screwed or blogger is screwed

that thing you do

kc family day
off. stuff. bus.
venette. daphne. friend.
busstop. kcp
miko. food. mrs sng.
scissors. nails. pissed.
bouncy castle. kids.
wander. rabbits.
faggot. balloons. they came.
song dedication. slacked.
left. walked. service
so so freaky.
tears. guiltypeople.
bubbletea. carrotcake
bus. home

i miss faggot and i think venus has sth against me
i can tell you know x)

youre just guilty lah just guilty HAHA

pretty day tmr (:

2005-05-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

i am hailey and im blogging for xinyi
she went to school tday.
examscripts.
then they all went to gen`s hse
LOVE came.so happy to see her ((:
then we slack arnd.
she was damn mean.
she didnt even bother talking to me :(
so sad so sad
oh wells. xinyi stayed on and ian came
miko and love left
played card games and stuff

went to downtown and ate macs.
LOVE came back (:
so so happy!

they played cards.hse was so crowded.
trained home with her and xinyi

this is dedicated to ciwei (:

2005-05-20T00:24:00.000+08:00

complicated it may seem
intricate it may be
tug the doll
and wake her up
arisen beauty
a new beginning
looking for comfort
looking for love.

pretty day
got back my results
i might as well dont go to sch and just rot at home
stella has pretty pics of soaked tampons HAHA
visited gen after sch (:
japanese noodle and csi
card games and raindrops
the new guy and macdonalds.
van came
went back to gen`s hse
played bridge ((:

home.

bitter sweet sensation

2005-05-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

inlovewithphotoshop (:

skipped sch.visit mr doctor
medicine and mc
no tuition for me
i miss kumar
HAHA
sch tmr

so fun so fun

for you id bleed myself dry.
actually i wont.
i will if i could (:

2005-05-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

what a wonderful world

im having a sore throat
i cant breathe

am i gg to sch tmr?
i dont know
do i want to?
no i dont

surprise surprise (:
i need proper rest.

gen`s mom cooks good noodles (:
i like

2005-05-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Mouths with tongues full of bitterness
are open graves waiting

12.13pm
off the bed and msges frm babes
met venus van and cw
miko! you NVR come ): haha
went t tampines.gamed.
then over to venus` hse

you got served.
fucking nice show i tell you
ps2 and card games
tv shows and pool
buses and trains.
home (:

just so pretty

in hrs time its gonna be another pretty day.

not what you want.

2005-05-16T06:21:00.000+08:00

left my com on till now.
no wonder thr`s music
blog later babes (:

2005-05-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

BAD NEWS.
how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how how
who the fuck did that t her
ah shit lah.
I JUST WANNA TALK TO YOU.
gws (: <3

2005-05-15T01:39:00.000+08:00

Make a circle square, a rectangle curve

pretty pretty day (:
met gen miko cw and joo
arcade.
joo and cw left
went t ljs.
slacked waited for si bung.
HAHA
played cards.
trained to bugis
guy was super pro playing the drums i tell you!
anw.cabbed to town
hahaha so funny
miko was kping
anw.melissa and cw came.
stuff.
then we left.
bused to tampines with cw and si bung
met van
slacked then waited for zoe (:
rained.
so fun so fun
rock fever.
cabbed home with van

so gentlemen arh.HAHA

Turn on the lights, paint me a tapestry

2005-05-14T01:33:00.000+08:00

Still sitting there with your legs crossed,
not paying attention to me.

got home not long ago (:
met venus.
slacked in macs.
ah lians invasion
napped at library
met van
over t gen`s hse
downtown for dinner.
left with venus n van
tampines.
did shit.
met cw.
talked.alot
venus left
arcade.
dark toilets
ljs
got a pie for my mom
its her bdae (:
1305
pretty number

slacked thr
wrote some story with cw
hahaha so dumb
den van shujing zoe and more came
they watched hse of wax.
pfft

anw walked t 7-11
stuff.damn slpy
bused home : P

lets say in a few hrs time
we`ll be meeting gen again.
YAY man
hahahha
as for now.
ill sleep

i cnt believe you`re such a fuckbag.HA

Dancing in plastic, shake-up snow

2005-05-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

I find beauty in our failings,
I find meaning in these lies
I'm made perfect in this fracture,
your back is begging sweetly for my knives

1.13pm.
noiseless phone.
cookies indulgence.

sleepover at cw

ytd.
amaths test and 7-11 trip
196bus.and polyclinic.
gen left.
cw and van came over.
chnged.
cabbed t cw`s hse
21busride
sudden change
went t tampines instead.
toys r us.
many many stuff
ljs and to eunos
met serene n joo
trained t buona vista.
match.
bus-ed and trained home (:
tempura chicken burger.

disco fever.

this morning
bused with van to her school
to the interchange
home (:
slpt.YAY

meeting venus soon.
hahahha
where`s everyone man!
i miss everyone ):

faulty blue christmas light

2005-05-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

heart-shaped alleyway
leading the way to nowhere

thehappypeople
chinese oral and coffee iceblend
punneyheart and 31busride
longjohns and gen`s hse
tshirtandshorts and whitesands arcade
mcdonalds.bridge and daidee
kumar`s and trainride home

Iron your carefully crafted disguise.

2005-05-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

cheap thrills (:

kicking roaches and smelling crayons
collecting chlorine and gg to kumar`s
lazing arnd and looking at pics
watching tv and polluting the lungs

gilmore girls is funnyshit

2005-05-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

nails for breakfast, tacks for snacks

mother`s day
stuff in e morning
wenta get stuff for my mom
then went t meet venus miko and ciwei
HAHA
happypeople (:

All this time
Lingers, undefined.
Someone choose
Who's left and who's leaving.

2005-05-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch

venus has short short hair now

I'm as mad as you are obsessively completely
Scouring the backwoods in a mind-warped frenzy
Hallelujah the night is white at the deep end
Heartbreaker
My God and saviour

everything i do i do it for you

emaths paper
wet tissue
canteen
milo
out of school
blk 51
wait for van
parkway
mcdonalds
dumb cchs shits
fengshui
belt exchange
gen miko babe left
bubble tea
walked arnd with christelle zhi ing van
waited for ciwei
vans shoes
buy socks
meet joo sijia
slacked
buonovista
serene.
bball match
NUS chinese scholar
shuttle bus
hor fun
clementi
train n cabbed home

the end

forget it man
just forget it

just got home and im in a foul mood
my mom is spasticated
i dont know what e hell i should get for mommy`s day
urgh pissing off man!

40winks
HAHAHAHA
cheat my feelings lah you!

2005-05-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here

jimeko (:

not talking abt you lah HAHAHAHA
i love kumar
YAY i love tuition

tmr`s friday
YAY.YAY.YAY
muted joy

2005-05-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

Would you be content to see me crying
After all those little games you put me through
After all I've done for you you're lying
Wouldn't it be nice to tell the truth

Didn't somebody somewhere say
You're gonna take a fall
I gave you everything
Now here's the curtain call

a fucking doormat

2005-05-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

All the cheap tricks I tried too hard not to pull.
Pulled along or pulled apart.
The diagnosis of a foreign frame of heart.
I have a story that I'd like to tell you,
it's littered with settings and second takes.
I have a feeling that hums with the street lights and hides under ice in always frozen lakes.
My mistake to make you cringe.

You do something to me that I can't explain
So would I be out of line,
If I said I miss you.

2005-04-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

Morning bright, rise.
Go over your lines.
Iron your carefully crafted disguise.
We'd all like to sing.
It's easy to sigh; to sprinkle a handful or plausible lies.
Our buildings will rise, poke out our own eyes.
Publicly smile and privately frown.
A weeping reprise.
Please hear my cries; I'd like to pull just this one building down.
So turn off the sky.
Head in my hands.
Night keep me warm.
White window-sill.
Blinded by heart.
Cut my hair short.
"Eyeless in Gaza with the slaves at the mill."

skipped school
joo came over.
slpt.study.doctor
(how come the font looks funny)
meet shujing sean gen miko and babe (:
stuff lah.
over to gen`s hse
baking
pizza
fishsoup
cheap thrills
meet van and ciwei
train home
YAY

tday is a pretty day

2005-04-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

While I lie awake
How I drug this mind to get some sleep unsuccessfully
Watching you die alone would make you the girl of my dreams
But instead the radio marches parades at 4am
These anthems of hopeless heartache
Serve as a timeline of my life until I fail
In slow motion I watch you now cut the sail
Girl of my dreams never gets easier

2803 ((:

2005-04-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

i like going to kumar`s ((:

so fun so fun
eng paper tday
rachel was trembling during morning assembly
so DAMN pathetic
she tried to act big in class and yet she shakes
hahahah wtf!
jiggly and juggly

wenta macs with sara love and gennypoo
hahahaha

20 questions

im sorry i cnt be perfect (x

2005-04-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

so confusing right?

i have asthma
ytd watched scary movie 3 at manda`s hse
talked to her abt lots of stuff ((:

live love burn die

2005-04-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

just came home and i think i have asthma

urgh.nevermind.
poor venus ) :

2005-04-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Touch, and the windows of the soul. Where the body speaks in a sacred language, and the eyes reveal that of which are hidden deep within.

For reasons only we know, for words only the heart is able to show.

schooled.
here and there with
babe gen miko venus and joo
HAHA
parkway macs
bus15
walk
joshua called.
met him at blk 51
went back t his school
waited and went t peninsula
stuff.

gays are adorable
guys are sickening.
srsly.

cheek pinching isnt fun btw.